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This is an archive of journals from late high school. A bit like a diary, this was a personal fork off of my senior project at the time to build a fully functioning blog site that people could sign up for, manage, and etc. I managed to recover all the posts, but I apparently forgot to back up the comments and attached music tables before repurposing my personal server, so those are mostly gone. This is a little embarrassing but not as awful as my old Geocities/tcn.heathenkitties.net early high school journals.

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2008-06-29 18:38:34 Category: IRL Log
Work was not rewarding. Work was not fun. I did not leave work with a :3 on my face. That's how it was over the winter/spring, banquet season, when we'd serve fancy meals to adults and I would act all polite with professionalface and nice white shirt and black pants and apron and shiny black shoes--although there's obviously more pressure to be professional and high quality in general, it wasn't that awful, and at the end of the day I would leave feeling like I genuinely helped. Great feeling. I mean, that's the feeling I live for.

But today was crap. I'd never done mornings before, and it was like my fifth time leading? I suck as a lead. I do. Especially when I'm leading two (yeah, only two--one person didn't even come in today) slow and/or unexperienced workers. I shouldn't be a lead--I'm obviously not quite there yet, and it's not like I get any sort of pay raise. Why should I get this responsibility? I don't want it if I'm not going to get paid for it accordingly. I was fine on the bottom rung and I'm leaving after this summer anyway. Last night was shit too--was shooting for being done at nine but I had to stay til about 10. I didn't mind the fact that I was working all on my own that last hour there, tying up loose ends in closing up the place, not feeling as pressured by the presence of others... so I felt not completely horrible because at least the place wasn't a complete mess. There were definitely some things unfinished but I figured since I was going to be there in the morning I'd just take care of it then. Hahaha.

I despise doing mornings, which is why I never work them. I thank the scheduler for usually never giving me the morning shifts.

I was going to complain some more in specifics about today, but I don't even feel like typing them out.

My mood today went from anxious to stressed to heart-wrenching guilt to complete apathy. I hit the bottom in spirit about 3 hours before I finally clocked out. I'm just glad I'm home now. I'm going to listen to Boards of Canada and self-indulge on the netz. That will cure me right up. I've got the next three days off, too.

So it's all good.

I'm going to talk to ze boss sometime.

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This is my cure. :)

Boards of Canada! :D <33
*spazzes*

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